Whoah

Right now the situation I am in is a strange one, part of me is cut up inside worrying about someone very special, the other is at its wits end as to what to do to win her back. I have displayed my feelings many times, she knows I would bend over backwards and give her the world if I could. Is there something else I must do, A matter of trust is the issue? I can live with that, but I need to know one thing. Is there still a slight hint of chemistry left, you still have feelings for me? Am I still cute, do I still make you smile? That's all I need to know, like a man in the snow, I need to find that jacket, I need to be by the fire in winter. Early to say, time needs it's time, time needs to heal. For what I feel is a jellylike flutter, kick of a newborn, like a dose of bad porn. Time will tell, we can only see, either way it goes, i'm glad you were a part of me.

A-Ten

I'm holding you as you feel scared and small.
You've lost someone you love and it's her you're thinking of.
It's all that matters to you right now and it will be like this for long.
I'll be close to you, won't hide 'cause I know you need me by your side.

You wanna see her back again.
You wanna see her back into this world.

These past few months have been the toughest of your life.
You've lost someone you love and there's no greater pain above.
I know how close you were you two and the joy and love you shared.
It was sweet for me to see but now it's aching inside me.
If only she could see you now. Deep inside I think she can somehow.
She'd be the happiest mom, she'd be so proud. She'd laugh and smile.
-Shut up you're dreaming ! You're screaming at me loud.
And that's the way you really feel.
Back into this world...

Untitled

I'm a long way from home
And so all alone
Homesick, like I never thought I'd be
I'm a long way from home
And everything is wrong
Someone please watch over me

I'm not accustomed to these feelings
The lonliness is burning in my soul
Sometimes the mind is so misleading
I wish I'd stayed at home like I was told

I wish I knew the force within me
That keeps my mind out of control
What makes me reach for things that I can't see
I wish I'd stayed at home like I was told

Random Question

So I thought I'd heard everything,
Thought I knew it all,
A friend told me tonight,
When are you gonna marry this girl,
I laughed, I shrugged it off,
Truth is I love her, I miss her so much,
Every day is a day closer to her,
I don't know what the future holds,
Pray for the best, forget about the rest,
You can make me a happy man,
I'm not gonna lie this time,
Say your gonna make you mine,
If it's meant to be it'll be for the rest of time,
Time will tell,
Be with me, that'd be just swell..........

Clouds

So today I had practice outside,
Another grueling session,
I stayed longer, wanting to better myself,
Big dark clouds formed above,
I turned on my Ipod and ran, I passed,
I shot, I dribbled, I felt alive,
I heard the thunder crack violently above,
The lightning whipping down in the midst,
I didn't care, I kept going,
But in the middle of this I have the same image,
A rye smile crept onto my grimacing face,
I stopped and looked above, I wonder what she's doing,
Like a cold beer after a game,
You calm me, you make me happy,
I guess all I'm trying to say is that,
I still care, I miss you, Your still here....